Stuff I need to get over with.

Everyday I wake up. Everyday turns out to be another day wasted.So back to the ancient method of writing down things you want to get done, and hoping that this time round I get off my lazy ass and actually get something down.
I will break up stuff, into three sections:
1. things to prevent my financial meltdown.
2. education dilao movement
3. stop the social suicide

Preventing my financial meltdown:

Make time to manage your money. Things that must be done are:
1. Get the Bank Transaction ID.
2. Pay everyone the money I owe.
3. Order a new Cheque book.
4. Order an international Credit Card.
5. Check you Etrade account.
6. Think about opting out of the ESPP
7. Getting that FD.

Education dilao:

1. Get the transcripts.
2. By the end of next week, finalize 10 univs.
3. Prepare you own deadline for applications.
4. Slog your ass for getting the SOPs ready in time.
5. work of getting the reccos.

Stopping the social slide/ education dilao doesn't fall flat on it's face:

1. CLEAN UP YOUR EFFING ROOM.
2. Dry Cleaning!!Dry Cleaning.
3. Take no shit, and waste no time.
4. repair your watches.
5. start calling people again.
6. Stop being a douche bag in general.
7. get your priorities right.

The way I are

I don't like being alone ( not talking about single here, I don't like that either, but this post isn't about that, at least not directly, and yes, I plan to write like Salman Rushdie with a million commas and other pointless punctuations)but I don't hate it.

The million retarded voices in my head keep me sufficiently busy for anything from a weekly team meeting to an overnight train journey. The good/bad thing is I am not too worried about it ( at least not as yet, may be when I hit 30 I'll be a freakin' mental wreck), I am sure any half assed intelligent person does the same thing ( and if you aren't doing it, thats probably because you shat your brains out years ago).

So where is this post going, as usual I am not too sure. But this is what I wanted to write, this weekend on an train journey I had plenty of time to hold an all party conference for all the "freak mes" in my head, and I think we came to a conclusion/mutual understanding. I have spent way too much time fucking up, messing around and in general seriously underachieving, while most of the people I actually liked have moved to other countries, are getting married,and/or are in other various awesomely awesome positions.

So I decided the fucking up has to go, but here comes the trick part, I don't want to eff up on my way to achieving my life goals, but I don't have any clue to what my goals are, and thats scary.Real scary. I am 24 and still without any clue what I am going to be or what I 'really' want to be.

When I was a kid in school (as opposed to now where I am still just a kid, but in a cubicle), I wanted to be a scientist and to do "cool science shit". So it isn't really all that surprising that with such clear cut out life goals to begin with, I am in this mess. When I look at all the other people, people I work with, friend from college, and maybe even the ones I went to school with, I wonder do all these people have everything figured out, or are they as confused as I am. Or maybe they have just resigned to do doing what they are doing. Well one thing I am confident about, I am never going to give in to doing some boring crap for the rest of life, no matter how unstable it may make my life.Or maybe I will.

An analysis of the psyche of toppers or why toppers top and i flunk

I will add to this post as soon as my flat mates start pissing me off again.

an asshole,who me?

Well they say that before you start pointing fingers and calling people names, you should take a look at yourself. So here I go.
First of all, I am NOT an asshole, I am fucking perfect, so if I have criticized you, pissed you off, or made you feel like shit, you probably deserved it.
There done, now I can get on with this blog, without feeling bad.

whats that you say, lack of coherence, was it?

Assuming, very safely assuming that my blog will never be read by anyone else, this blog will be my to do list, my bulletin board and most importantly where I clear my head of all the shit that its been filled with the in the past 24 years.
But just in case someone does stumble across this blog, it would be lovely if he/she would leave a comment behind.
So how do I begin?
Well I don't know. This blog isn't about current affairs, it's about my life, my mistakes and me bitching and cribbing on a whole range of topics ( including my work, and my boss, but not too much of that, boss-man could use his mad debugging skills to link this blog back to me, and that would lead to one of hell of a one-on-one meeting).
Well that about sums up my first, not too brilliant post.
Coming soon on this blog: my deadly boring to do list and geek rant on women.